|Posted on February 23, 2017 at 10:55 PM|
Hey there everyone,
Robert here, better known as Your Geeky Tipster, and I think it's time for some serious changes.
As many of you know, I am a long time sufferer of anxiety and depression. It's an ongoing struggle that I often deal with and one of my main outlets for dealing with it is YouTube. I love making videos and hosting live streams for my audience. It's become my primary escape when overcoming the struggles of life. Having said that, I think I've been pushing myself too far.
Over the past few years, I've dealt with many things in my personal life that have been both stressful and contributed to further progressing my anxiety and depression. Stress at work, in my family, over finances and many other things have overwhelmed me in ways that I can't even begin to communicate properly.
At the same time, I have made efforts to step up my game on YouTube. Things like providing daily content and engaging with my audience regularly. I want to make something great of my channel and I've always believed that hard work and dedication can help you achieve anything. And while I certainly enjoy creating content and engaging with you all, I also feel like I'm putting a lot of pressure on myself to deliver. For example, I had a literal breakdown last night when I ran into tech issues while trying to stream. As fun as making videos is, all this pressure to do my best only results contributes to even more stress.
Tonight I had the worst anxiety attack of my life. I didn't get much sleep last night due to staying up all night editing videos and further resolving the previously mentioned tech issues, I worked overtime at my day job today and work got so busy that I didn't get a chance to take lunch. During the drive home I began to hyperventilate to the point that I had to pull over and get out of my car to breath. After a few minutes I thought I was okay so I got back in the car and proceeded to drive home. This process repeated 2 more times during the course of the entire drive home.
As much as I love making videos, I feel like I am seriously putting too much pressure on myself to give you all my best. I feel like I am putting too much pressure on myself to put out daily content and I feel like all this pressure in addition to the stress of life is starting to have a negative impact on my health and well being. And as such, I think it's time to take a step back.
Now don't worry. I'm not entirely stepping away from YouTube, nor am I taking a break. I simply think I need to spend less time working on YouTube videos. Instead of putting so much pressure on myself, I'll go back to uploading when I have the time and energy. No more late nights to get out a video for the following day. No more putting deadlines on myself. And no more stressing myself out if things don't go so smoothly.
At the end of the day, I feel like this will result in both better quality content as well as a better healthier me. I wanna thank you all for your support and understanding. The #YourGeekyNation is easily one of the best communities on YouTube and I thank you all for everything you all have done for me during my 10 years as a content creator.
So to wrap this up, a tip of the day. Don't constantly pressure yourself into doing your best. Your health and well being is more important, so put that first. Besides, doing your best doesn't have to be that hard. Just do what you can and it will all work out in the end. Thank you all for taking the time to read my novel, and as always, I'll see you all next time.