|Posted on February 23, 2017 at 10:55 PM||comments (0)|
Hey there everyone,
Robert here, better known as Your Geeky Tipster, and I think it's time for some serious changes.
As many of you know, I am a long time sufferer of anxiety and depression. It's an ongoing struggle that I often deal with and one of my main outlets for dealing with it is YouTube. I love making videos and hosting live streams for my audience. It's become my primary escape when overcoming the struggles of life. Having said that, I think I've been pushing myself too far.
Over the past few years, I've dealt with many things in my personal life that have been both stressful and contributed to further progressing my anxiety and depression. Stress at work, in my family, over finances and many other things have overwhelmed me in ways that I can't even begin to communicate properly.
At the same time, I have made efforts to step up my game on YouTube. Things like providing daily content and engaging with my audience regularly. I want to make something great of my channel and I've always believed that hard work and dedication can help you achieve anything. And while I certainly enjoy creating content and engaging with you all, I also feel like I'm putting a lot of pressure on myself to deliver. For example, I had a literal breakdown last night when I ran into tech issues while trying to stream. As fun as making videos is, all this pressure to do my best only results contributes to even more stress.
Tonight I had the worst anxiety attack of my life. I didn't get much sleep last night due to staying up all night editing videos and further resolving the previously mentioned tech issues, I worked overtime at my day job today and work got so busy that I didn't get a chance to take lunch. During the drive home I began to hyperventilate to the point that I had to pull over and get out of my car to breath. After a few minutes I thought I was okay so I got back in the car and proceeded to drive home. This process repeated 2 more times during the course of the entire drive home.
As much as I love making videos, I feel like I am seriously putting too much pressure on myself to give you all my best. I feel like I am putting too much pressure on myself to put out daily content and I feel like all this pressure in addition to the stress of life is starting to have a negative impact on my health and well being. And as such, I think it's time to take a step back.
Now don't worry. I'm not entirely stepping away from YouTube, nor am I taking a break. I simply think I need to spend less time working on YouTube videos. Instead of putting so much pressure on myself, I'll go back to uploading when I have the time and energy. No more late nights to get out a video for the following day. No more putting deadlines on myself. And no more stressing myself out if things don't go so smoothly.
At the end of the day, I feel like this will result in both better quality content as well as a better healthier me. I wanna thank you all for your support and understanding. The #YourGeekyNation is easily one of the best communities on YouTube and I thank you all for everything you all have done for me during my 10 years as a content creator.
So to wrap this up, a tip of the day. Don't constantly pressure yourself into doing your best. Your health and well being is more important, so put that first. Besides, doing your best doesn't have to be that hard. Just do what you can and it will all work out in the end. Thank you all for taking the time to read my novel, and as always, I'll see you all next time.
|Posted on August 24, 2016 at 10:40 AM||comments (0)|
I just wanted to type a simple message...thank you. The past few years for me have been trying times for me. Every ounce of my well-being has been tested, and admittedly on several occasions, I have failed to pass those tests. But through it all, you all stood by me. You had my back. You continued to support me. And I sincerely appreciate every single one of you.
The #YourGeekyNation is more than just an online community. You guys are like family. The most supportive family anyone could ever ask for. And I appreciate you all being there for me enjoying the work I do. I know in recent months there have been a lot of ups and downs. But with your help, I have been able to surpass and overcome many obstacles. And it is because of you that I have come this far.
I know this blog may seem random, but I just wanted to take the time to thank you all for the support you have given me. I hope this community continues to grow bigger and stronger and that we can all be there for each other the way you’ve been there for me.
Anyway guys, take care and stay awesome.
|Posted on July 26, 2016 at 5:10 PM||comments (0)|
There are times in our lives when we are so passionate about something that we get a little over ambitious. For me, this is one of those times...
As you all know by now, I announced a few days ago on my channel that I was taking yet another break from the channel this year. I know...the past year has had many setbacks. This break stems from many things in my personal life, but the biggest being this time of year at work. In my day job, this time of year is always stressful. A lot to do in very little time. But this year, it is even worse. For this year, I am transitioning to new sites. This adds a lot of complexity to an already hectic environment. So that is the biggest reason for the break.
Other reasons include issues of mental health, self-preservation and also re-evaluating how I approach different aspects of my life, public and personal. One of those aspects of my life is definitely my YouTube channel. A while back, I made the very ambitious announcement that I would be uploading a piece of content to the channel EVERY...SINGLE...DAY. Being in a situation where I officially decided I want to work harder to make this a career and not just a hobby, I figured the best way to grow the channel would be to take my content to the next level. And I was right! The frequent uploads did result in more growth on the channel. But there were also side effects to the new upload/stream schedule and added work.
Since making the announcement, I have felt extremely drained. Anyone who says running a YouTube channel isn't a "real job" has no idea. Balancing a full time job and running a YouTube channel is hard enough as it is. But also doing so and ensuring that you will have content 7 days a week, 365 days a year is just crazy!!! I fully intended to do that, but it quickly became clear to me that it was something that was totally impractical. So the amount of weekly uploads will need to be adjusted.
The other issue was the streams. I love streaming because it was the ultimate way to engage with you guys. But with my current streaming schedule, I was promising 3 streams a week and basically as soon as I got out of work, I was streaming with no break after work what so ever. It was difficult to be energetic during those streams to say the least. So the stream schedule too will be changing.
Also, in order to maintain one's sanity with all this work, one would need time to their self to regenerate. This is something I literally had no time to do. I was basically working every waking hour. And on top of that, only getting a few hours of sleep a night. I was a zombie. Now I have worked hard to achieve everything I set my mind to. And I intend to do the same with YouTube. But I will need to scale back a bit for sure. So how do I intend to do that?
The first thing is weekends are "me time". No more work on the weekends. Not for my day job and not for YouTube. I may film a vid or two on the weekends, but no streams or uploads. This may harm the growth of my channel, but if it helps me with my physical and mental health, it’s worth it. A healthy and happy Robert results in better content. And personally I feel like my content has suffered over the past month or so. So here is the new schedule: 2 streams a week. Monday and Friday at 7PM PST. Monday will be a Gaming Break gameplay stream and Friday will be the #YourGeekyNation Hangout.
As for pre-recorded uploads, those will be Tuesday through Thursday. Q&A Tuesday will resume and I am looking at the possibility of getting a PO Box to do a weekly mail show on Thursdays. Wednesday would be a wild card. A review, a How-To, a Top 5. Anything I feel like talking about, it will be on Wednesday. I am also changing the time the videos go live. In the past, it has been at 12PM PST. I want some uniformity with the live streams, so those too will be changing to 7PM PST. That also gives me time to edit those the day they go live as opposed to cramming it in over the weekend. Now, even with this schedule, that doesn't mean I wont post a random video from time to time. As always, if something comes up in the news that I wanna talk about, I will. But these changes simply guarantee you 2 streams and 3 uploads a week.
Overall, I hope these changes will result in better quality content for you all and a better, healthier me. I am especially excited about making the channel more interactive with you all. Interactivity with the audience is the best part about being a YouTuber. And I hope to further engage with you all as part of the future of this channel. Other improvements coming to the channel include a new banner and updated intro and outro. The future looks bright for the channel and I hope you all continue to join me for the ride. Anyway, it will still be a while before I officially return. Work is still CRAZY hectic and I hope things return to normal soon. But either way, thank you all for your support and I hope to be back soon.
|Posted on May 10, 2016 at 1:15 PM||comments (0)|
Hey there everyone!
I hope everyone is having a fantastic week. I wanted to announce something that may make all of you very excited. Its something that I have been quietly doing for the past couple weeks, but I wanted to make a formal announcement. I will officially begin doing new content every weekday! So basically every week, Monday through Friday, I will be uploading a new video to the channel. How cool is that!? I will spend Saturday and Sunday making new content for the week, and slowly release it all throughout the week, giving you all an awesome week packed with geeky goodness!
I also launched a new show today that will happen every week called Q&A Tuesday! Its easy to guess what this show is all about, but it will be one of two regularly scheduled features on the channel in addition to the Super Geeky Weekly Wrap-Up which I live stream every Thursday at 6PM PST. So now we have two shows you can expect to be regularly scheduled every week! I want to try and do more regularly scheduled content, so stay tuned for news on that.
Also, I realize my recent announcement of no more tech content on the channel hit my viewers who came to my channel for tech like a brick wall. So I have some encoraging news for you all. Tech is back...though not quite in the same capacity. Basically I will still cover tech, but only as it pertains to gaming. So random tablet reviews, no. But gaming tablets? Yes! Smartphone coverage? No...but tips on capturing gameplay on a phone? Absolutely! In fact, I am currently working on a review for my gaming laptop that I just purchased, so stay tuned!
One last thing. I have been testing the waters with streaming on YouTube and Twitch and after much though, I have decided that all future streams will be on YouTube. While I admittedly prefer Twitch, getting those captured streams uploaded in time for YouTube viewers for later view often proves difficult. So I have decided to just stick to YouTube in favor of quick and easy access to both the streams and re-uploads.
Anyway, I just wanted to post a quick update on myself and what is coming to the channel. I hope you all enjoy it and stay awesome guys!
|Posted on April 25, 2016 at 2:30 PM||comments (0)|
So I got some rest last night and my blood and stopped boiling. On top of that, I woke up to a wall of supportive comments. I want to thank everyone for their support. You all are amazing and admittedly, the outpouring of support has allowed me to approach this situation more rationally. I also want to ask my supporters to refrain from harassing those who harassed me. By doing what they do, we are no better than them. So please refrain from harassing them as that just creates an endless cycle of cyber bullying.
So after much thought, I won’t be going away. Yes, I let some really lousy people get the best of me last night and I admit, I suffered a bruised ego from it all. But as many of you stated, if I walk away, they win. And who wants that!? Also, why the hell should I let them keep me from what I love doing? Making content for you all is what brings me joy in life and I won’t allow a group of nobodies with no ambitions in life other than harassing and bullying people to steal that away from me. Having said that, I do have some changes that I will be making to my channel in the future.
I have been dealing with trolls for over a decade now and I can handle it. But my wife never asked for this. She never asked to be in the spotlight or crosshairs of cyber bullies. You can argue that she knew what she was getting into when she dated/married me, but in no way should that subject her to the barrage of insults I get daily. Seeing her distraught and upset last night over comments being directed at her threw me into a literally fit of rage. And admittedly, I failed to keep a level head and handled the situation poorly. But just imagine seeing someone you loved in emotional pain over the comments made by some very sad individuals. So from this point forward, my wife will no longer be a part of my content. I refuse to let her be a subject for ridicule and as such, she won’t be moderating the chat in my live streams or appearing in my content any longer. This also means the "A Geek And His Wife Podcast" is cancelled, effective immediately.
I also wanna say I am not perfect. I am human and therefore, I make mistakes. I will admit that the actions of these bullies weren't completely unprovoked, but that doesn't justify their actions. They were still wrong in their attack and very wrong to drag my wife into it. But I have no problem admitting when I've screwed up. I did make a mistake and for that I apologize. Many of you know I take great pride in my work and in the past when I felt that someone has stolen my work, I've used my legal right to protect my content. No one should be able to steal someone elses work. No one. And while I did consult a copyright expert and they did confirm that the video in question did indeed violate my copyrighted material, nor did it fall under the guidelines of fair use, I did retract my takedown request and the video has been restored. What I learned from this experience is that sometimes you just need to let it go. I will still continue to protect the content I create, but I will be sure to pick my battles more wisely in the future.
Lastly, I will be taking a brief break from YouTube and Social Media. Maybe a week or two. This situation has been really hard on me. Seeing the way those comments affected my wife was an emotional rollercoaster. I never wanted anyone to hurt her and in that regard, I failed her. Like I said before, I have dealt with trolls and cyber bullies many times before. I can handle it. But she couldn’t. And seeing her hurt by what they said to her broke my heart. I really need some time to heal from all this. My wife has had a rough life. She has lived her whole life with Muscular Dystrophy. A struggle in itself. But she was often bullied because her disability made her "different". In my eyes, she is beautiful and one of the most amazing people I have ever met. And I will do anything in my power to support and protect her. So I ask that you all please respect my privacy while I take some time to get past this whole situation.
I want to wrap this up with a few brief thought on cyber bullying. It’s wrong. Its unacceptable. In some places, its a crime and we need to stop ignoring it. It’s time to stop sweeping it under the rug. We have always been told time and time again to "ignore the trolls" or "just block them". But persistent cyber bullies don't quit that easily. They have multiple accounts to continue the assault and they often operate in groups. The ones who came at myself and my wife are part of a very large group, and the barrage of insults directed at us wasruthless and relentless. And while what they type on the computer is just words, words do hurt. They may not hurt me, but they certainly do hurt others. And they definitely hurt my wife. Cyber bullying has resulted in pain and suffering for many people on the internet. And in a few very unfortunate situations, it has even cost the victims their lives. Why do we ignore this? Why do we not demand change? It’s time to stop ignoring it and start fighting back. We need to demand that services like YouTube, Facebook, Twitter and others provide better tools and resources for dealing with cyber bullies. There are two reasons this continues to be a problem. Because we ignore it and because the services these cyber bullies use to commit these terrible acts also ignore it and make it difficult to report. Even if the abuse is reported, it is still ignored. This is unacceptable and we need to demand change.
In any case, I am thankful for those who support me and those who helped me to reconsider my decision to leave YouTube. I am not going anywhere. They did not win. They can kiss my ass. Your Geeky Tipster is here to stay.