|Posted on March 31, 2019 at 5:05 PM||comments (0)|
Been a while since I posted something to my blog, so here is an update.
So word on the street is that I am a social climber and other content creators don't like me.
At the end of the day, as a YouTuber, I am subject to criticism. Valid or not. And I take no offense to it. I am literally just a guy with a day job who makes YouTube Videos and does Twitch Streams as a hobby. Sure...would be nice if I could do it full time. But here and now, its just a hobby.
And during the entire 12+ year run of my channel, I have never asked for a handout, begged for a shout-out or even asked a larger creator to collab with me. I built my channel from the ground up on my own. And yeah...some creators gave me shoutouts and helped me out of their own volition along the way. And I appreciate every single one of them for their help. 100%. But I have never asked for a handout. Ever.
As for comments on other creators not liking me, I am fine with that. I am 32 years old. I realize at my age that not everyone is going to like me. And thats fine. As a YouTuber, I am kind of a public figure. And as such, people will criticize me or have their own opinions of me. Valid or not. If people don't like me, fine. They don't have to like me. No skin off my back.
Like anyone else I have my own little close circle of friends and I have my family outside of that. And thats all that really matters. I am not going to beg for people to like me. You either like me or your don't. Its really that simple. At the end of the day when I log off the internet, none of this matters.
I think the only thing I would like to sincerely apologize for is the fact that over the course of the last few months, I have been an asshole to a lot of people that didn't deserve it. And I make no excuses for myself. Being a dick to people who don't deserve it is wrong. All I can say is that between my day job and personal life shit that I would rather keep private, I have been going through a lot. And as such, I have not exactly been myself. Again...this is not an excuse for my behavior. I take responsibility for my own actions. But I do apologize if you are reading this and you happen to be one of the people I was an asshole to.
To re-iterate a point I made earlier in this thread, I am just a guy who makes videos and streams in his free time as a hobby. I would love for this hobby to become more down the road, but if not, I am quite content with it being just a hobby. I have always tried to assist other creators with the limited means I have available to me and I have never asked for handouts or taken shortcuts to get to where I am now. But at the end of the day, people will have whatever opinions they want about me. Its just part of the gig.
As for me, I am just gonna keep doing what I enjoy. Making content in my free time. People can watch it and enjoy it or ignore it and be annoyed by it. Either way, I will keep doing it as long as I enjoy it. Anyway, this thread went on a LOT longer than I intended it to. I just wanted to share my thoughts on this.
Until next time, take care.
|Posted on June 9, 2018 at 4:55 PM||comments (0)|
So as you all know, I announced earlier this week that I was "leaving YouTube". And while there was some truth to that original statement, I now see that making that announcement was a huge mistake. It is true that I have very little time to dedicate to both Twitch Streaming and YouTube and balance those two along with my full time job. I am legitimately dissatisfied with the way YouTube is currently running their platform. And I was being honest when I said that I am less interested in producing exclusive video content for YouTube and focusing more on streaming at Twitch. But all that being said, the announcement was still a mistake.
To be honest with you guys, I have put a lot of pressure on myself to achieve things I may never actually achieve. That combined with the stress of my day job and the stresses of personal life have put me in a very dark place recently. All this puts me in a frame of mind where I am very indecisive about a lot of things as well as find it difficult to make decisions in terms of what I want to do as a content creator moving forward. But using the last few days to reflect a bit, I feel like my original decision was the wrong approach to take.
So what have I decided to do exactly? Well, I am still interested in focusing more attention on Twitch. Streaming on Twitch is my new passion and it is something I really love to do. My audience over there is extremely supportive and we have a blast over there. But I don't want to abandon my YouTube audience who has supported me all these years. I put a lot of pressure on myself to keep creating content for you all and post something at least once every weekday in the past and admittedly it has been very overwhelming and definitely contributed to this irrational decision. So I will continue to provide content to YouTube by sharing clips from my streams with you all. But I wont pressure myself to get content out every weekday like before. If I have something to share, I will. If not, then I wont. I am also considering the possibility of doing a weekly podcast similar to the Super Geeky Weekly Wrap-Ups I used to do years ago. More to come on that.
In any case, I sincerely apologize to my community for this. Please bare with me as I am experiencing a lot in my personal life at the moment and admittedly, I let the stress and anxiety get the best of me sometimes. I look forward to continuing to provide content to both my YouTube and Twitch audiences and I appreciate everyone who has stood by me through this tough time.
|Posted on June 7, 2018 at 4:05 PM||comments (0)|
When I asked people about this on social media, a lot of people reacted negatively to it. I am used to negative feedback. You kind of have to be as a content creator. But this really confused me. Why is finding a way to please both my Twitch and YouTube audience a BAD thing? Well...Somehow people saw this as "flip flopping". Its not. Taking 5 minutes out of my day to click an export button is NOT flip flopping. I am still putting all my energy into Twitch. But after every stream I will take 5 to 10 minutes to export parts of that stream for my YouTube subscribers as a courtesy to them. Since it doesn't take much time, it is the least I can do.
I understand that you can't please everyone and sometimes people are upset about things that we will never understand. This is one of those things. In any case, there is clearly a portion of my audience who likes this compromise and for them, I am moving forward with it. If you are one of the few who for some reason has an issue with this, I apologize that I am unable to meet your standard or understand them. For those people, you are free to unsubscribe if you wish. But this will be the last time I will address this "issue".
Anyway, I thank the majority of you for your support during this transition and I am glad I can provide this little compromise to those of you who do not wish to migrate over to Twitch.
Take care and stay awesome!
|Posted on December 14, 2017 at 1:55 PM||comments (0)|
|Posted on March 13, 2017 at 4:25 AM||comments (0)|