|Posted on March 31, 2019 at 5:05 PM||comments (0)|
Been a while since I posted something to my blog, so here is an update.
So word on the street is that I am a social climber and other content creators don't like me.
At the end of the day, as a YouTuber, I am subject to criticism. Valid or not. And I take no offense to it. I am literally just a guy with a day job who makes YouTube Videos and does Twitch Streams as a hobby. Sure...would be nice if I could do it full time. But here and now, its just a hobby.
And during the entire 12+ year run of my channel, I have never asked for a handout, begged for a shout-out or even asked a larger creator to collab with me. I built my channel from the ground up on my own. And yeah...some creators gave me shoutouts and helped me out of their own volition along the way. And I appreciate every single one of them for their help. 100%. But I have never asked for a handout. Ever.
As for comments on other creators not liking me, I am fine with that. I am 32 years old. I realize at my age that not everyone is going to like me. And thats fine. As a YouTuber, I am kind of a public figure. And as such, people will criticize me or have their own opinions of me. Valid or not. If people don't like me, fine. They don't have to like me. No skin off my back.
Like anyone else I have my own little close circle of friends and I have my family outside of that. And thats all that really matters. I am not going to beg for people to like me. You either like me or your don't. Its really that simple. At the end of the day when I log off the internet, none of this matters.
I think the only thing I would like to sincerely apologize for is the fact that over the course of the last few months, I have been an asshole to a lot of people that didn't deserve it. And I make no excuses for myself. Being a dick to people who don't deserve it is wrong. All I can say is that between my day job and personal life shit that I would rather keep private, I have been going through a lot. And as such, I have not exactly been myself. Again...this is not an excuse for my behavior. I take responsibility for my own actions. But I do apologize if you are reading this and you happen to be one of the people I was an asshole to.
To re-iterate a point I made earlier in this thread, I am just a guy who makes videos and streams in his free time as a hobby. I would love for this hobby to become more down the road, but if not, I am quite content with it being just a hobby. I have always tried to assist other creators with the limited means I have available to me and I have never asked for handouts or taken shortcuts to get to where I am now. But at the end of the day, people will have whatever opinions they want about me. Its just part of the gig.
As for me, I am just gonna keep doing what I enjoy. Making content in my free time. People can watch it and enjoy it or ignore it and be annoyed by it. Either way, I will keep doing it as long as I enjoy it. Anyway, this thread went on a LOT longer than I intended it to. I just wanted to share my thoughts on this.
Until next time, take care.
|Posted on February 23, 2017 at 10:55 PM||comments (0)|
Hey there everyone,
Robert here, better known as Your Geeky Tipster, and I think it's time for some serious changes.
As many of you know, I am a long time sufferer of anxiety and depression. It's an ongoing struggle that I often deal with and one of my main outlets for dealing with it is YouTube. I love making videos and hosting live streams for my audience. It's become my primary escape when overcoming the struggles of life. Having said that, I think I've been pushing myself too far.
Over the past few years, I've dealt with many things in my personal life that have been both stressful and contributed to further progressing my anxiety and depression. Stress at work, in my family, over finances and many other things have overwhelmed me in ways that I can't even begin to communicate properly.
At the same time, I have made efforts to step up my game on YouTube. Things like providing daily content and engaging with my audience regularly. I want to make something great of my channel and I've always believed that hard work and dedication can help you achieve anything. And while I certainly enjoy creating content and engaging with you all, I also feel like I'm putting a lot of pressure on myself to deliver. For example, I had a literal breakdown last night when I ran into tech issues while trying to stream. As fun as making videos is, all this pressure to do my best only results contributes to even more stress.
Tonight I had the worst anxiety attack of my life. I didn't get much sleep last night due to staying up all night editing videos and further resolving the previously mentioned tech issues, I worked overtime at my day job today and work got so busy that I didn't get a chance to take lunch. During the drive home I began to hyperventilate to the point that I had to pull over and get out of my car to breath. After a few minutes I thought I was okay so I got back in the car and proceeded to drive home. This process repeated 2 more times during the course of the entire drive home.
As much as I love making videos, I feel like I am seriously putting too much pressure on myself to give you all my best. I feel like I am putting too much pressure on myself to put out daily content and I feel like all this pressure in addition to the stress of life is starting to have a negative impact on my health and well being. And as such, I think it's time to take a step back.
Now don't worry. I'm not entirely stepping away from YouTube, nor am I taking a break. I simply think I need to spend less time working on YouTube videos. Instead of putting so much pressure on myself, I'll go back to uploading when I have the time and energy. No more late nights to get out a video for the following day. No more putting deadlines on myself. And no more stressing myself out if things don't go so smoothly.
At the end of the day, I feel like this will result in both better quality content as well as a better healthier me. I wanna thank you all for your support and understanding. The #YourGeekyNation is easily one of the best communities on YouTube and I thank you all for everything you all have done for me during my 10 years as a content creator.
So to wrap this up, a tip of the day. Don't constantly pressure yourself into doing your best. Your health and well being is more important, so put that first. Besides, doing your best doesn't have to be that hard. Just do what you can and it will all work out in the end. Thank you all for taking the time to read my novel, and as always, I'll see you all next time.
|Posted on December 31, 2015 at 8:35 PM||comments (0)|
Well, here we are. Mere hours away from 2016 and let me tell you, I can't wait for it. I know I have shared a bit of the stuggles of the year with you all, but if only you knew the extent of it. 2015 has been an utter nightmare. A nightmare I would much rather forget. Even at the final stretch of 2015, the crap shoot continues to pump excrement my way. Why is that? Cause its New Years Eve and I get to spend it in bed with a cold. Yay!
Either way, I am glad that very soon I can put this year behind me and start fresh. And even though this year has been so awful, I thank you all for the support you all have shown me through this tough time. Anyway, I just wanted to wish you all a Happy New Year and look forward to the awesomeness that 2016 has to offer.
Take care everyone and I hope you all have a fantastic New Year.
|Posted on December 17, 2015 at 3:30 AM||comments (0)|
As you all know in my last blog posted HERE, I said I was back. And as my last couple videos HERE, HERE and HERE have indicated, the depression I thought I was over? SOOO not the case. Having said that, I wanted to give a status update.
Since the last vlog I posted, I am feeling a LOT better and I am eagerly awaiting the New Year. For me, the New Year will be a fresh start in my life as well as on my YouTube channel. I intend to reinvent the channel by making changes to the content. Some of which have already been made (and noticed by eagle-eyed supporters) I plan to make changes in my personal life which include taking a great interest in managing my health, finances and mental state. For me, I forsee an amazing year in 2016.
Now, I have done a couple of Periscope streams recently discussing my return but in case you missed it, I will be back January 1st, 2016. I will be posting an update video stating my return as well as changes coming to the channel including the introduction to new content, content that will be discontinued and the addition of an archive that will contain all discontinued content. So stay tuned for more details on all of that.
Bottom line, 2016 is going to be a great year. 2015 had many public and personal events that really got me down and I intend to leave 2015 behind and never look back. So to myself and all of you, I am looking forward to a fantastic 2016 and I will see you then with a newly invigorated Your Geeky Tipster™. I thank you all for being VERY understanding about my situation this year and look forward to my return.
Thanks for your continued support,
|Posted on November 8, 2015 at 6:00 PM||comments (0)|