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Hey there everyone,
Robert here, better known as Your Geeky Tipster, and I think it's time for some serious changes.
As many of you know, I am a long time sufferer of anxiety and depression. It's an ongoing struggle that I often deal with and one of my main outlets for dealing with it is YouTube. I love making videos and hosting live streams for my audience. It's become my primary escape when overcoming the struggles of life. Having said that, I think I've been pushing myself too far.
Over the past few years, I've dealt with many things in my personal life that have been both stressful and contributed to further progressing my anxiety and depression. Stress at work, in my family, over finances and many other things have overwhelmed me in ways that I can't even begin to communicate properly.
At the same time, I have made efforts to step up my game on YouTube. Things like providing daily content and engaging with my audience regularly. I want to make something great of my channel and I've always believed that hard work and dedication can help you achieve anything. And while I certainly enjoy creating content and engaging with you all, I also feel like I'm putting a lot of pressure on myself to deliver. For example, I had a literal breakdown last night when I ran into tech issues while trying to stream. As fun as making videos is, all this pressure to do my best only results contributes to even more stress.
Tonight I had the worst anxiety attack of my life. I didn't get much sleep last night due to staying up all night editing videos and further resolving the previously mentioned tech issues, I worked overtime at my day job today and work got so busy that I didn't get a chance to take lunch. During the drive home I began to hyperventilate to the point that I had to pull over and get out of my car to breath. After a few minutes I thought I was okay so I got back in the car and proceeded to drive home. This process repeated 2 more times during the course of the entire drive home.
As much as I love making videos, I feel like I am seriously putting too much pressure on myself to give you all my best. I feel like I am putting too much pressure on myself to put out daily content and I feel like all this pressure in addition to the stress of life is starting to have a negative impact on my health and well being. And as such, I think it's time to take a step back.
Now don't worry. I'm not entirely stepping away from YouTube, nor am I taking a break. I simply think I need to spend less time working on YouTube videos. Instead of putting so much pressure on myself, I'll go back to uploading when I have the time and energy. No more late nights to get out a video for the following day. No more putting deadlines on myself. And no more stressing myself out if things don't go so smoothly.
At the end of the day, I feel like this will result in both better quality content as well as a better healthier me. I wanna thank you all for your support and understanding. The #YourGeekyNation is easily one of the best communities on YouTube and I thank you all for everything you all have done for me during my 10 years as a content creator.
So to wrap this up, a tip of the day. Don't constantly pressure yourself into doing your best. Your health and well being is more important, so put that first. Besides, doing your best doesn't have to be that hard. Just do what you can and it will all work out in the end. Thank you all for taking the time to read my novel, and as always, I'll see you all next time.
|Posted on August 24, 2016 at 10:40 AM||comments (0)|
I just wanted to type a simple message...thank you. The past few years for me have been trying times for me. Every ounce of my well-being has been tested, and admittedly on several occasions, I have failed to pass those tests. But through it all, you all stood by me. You had my back. You continued to support me. And I sincerely appreciate every single one of you.
The #YourGeekyNation is more than just an online community. You guys are like family. The most supportive family anyone could ever ask for. And I appreciate you all being there for me enjoying the work I do. I know in recent months there have been a lot of ups and downs. But with your help, I have been able to surpass and overcome many obstacles. And it is because of you that I have come this far.
I know this blog may seem random, but I just wanted to take the time to thank you all for the support you have given me. I hope this community continues to grow bigger and stronger and that we can all be there for each other the way you’ve been there for me.
Anyway guys, take care and stay awesome.
|Posted on July 26, 2016 at 5:10 PM||comments (0)|
There are times in our lives when we are so passionate about something that we get a little over ambitious. For me, this is one of those times...
As you all know by now, I announced a few days ago on my channel that I was taking yet another break from the channel this year. I know...the past year has had many setbacks. This break stems from many things in my personal life, but the biggest being this time of year at work. In my day job, this time of year is always stressful. A lot to do in very little time. But this year, it is even worse. For this year, I am transitioning to new sites. This adds a lot of complexity to an already hectic environment. So that is the biggest reason for the break.
Other reasons include issues of mental health, self-preservation and also re-evaluating how I approach different aspects of my life, public and personal. One of those aspects of my life is definitely my YouTube channel. A while back, I made the very ambitious announcement that I would be uploading a piece of content to the channel EVERY...SINGLE...DAY. Being in a situation where I officially decided I want to work harder to make this a career and not just a hobby, I figured the best way to grow the channel would be to take my content to the next level. And I was right! The frequent uploads did result in more growth on the channel. But there were also side effects to the new upload/stream schedule and added work.
Since making the announcement, I have felt extremely drained. Anyone who says running a YouTube channel isn't a "real job" has no idea. Balancing a full time job and running a YouTube channel is hard enough as it is. But also doing so and ensuring that you will have content 7 days a week, 365 days a year is just crazy!!! I fully intended to do that, but it quickly became clear to me that it was something that was totally impractical. So the amount of weekly uploads will need to be adjusted.
The other issue was the streams. I love streaming because it was the ultimate way to engage with you guys. But with my current streaming schedule, I was promising 3 streams a week and basically as soon as I got out of work, I was streaming with no break after work what so ever. It was difficult to be energetic during those streams to say the least. So the stream schedule too will be changing.
Also, in order to maintain one's sanity with all this work, one would need time to their self to regenerate. This is something I literally had no time to do. I was basically working every waking hour. And on top of that, only getting a few hours of sleep a night. I was a zombie. Now I have worked hard to achieve everything I set my mind to. And I intend to do the same with YouTube. But I will need to scale back a bit for sure. So how do I intend to do that?
The first thing is weekends are "me time". No more work on the weekends. Not for my day job and not for YouTube. I may film a vid or two on the weekends, but no streams or uploads. This may harm the growth of my channel, but if it helps me with my physical and mental health, it’s worth it. A healthy and happy Robert results in better content. And personally I feel like my content has suffered over the past month or so. So here is the new schedule: 2 streams a week. Monday and Friday at 7PM PST. Monday will be a Gaming Break gameplay stream and Friday will be the #YourGeekyNation Hangout.
As for pre-recorded uploads, those will be Tuesday through Thursday. Q&A Tuesday will resume and I am looking at the possibility of getting a PO Box to do a weekly mail show on Thursdays. Wednesday would be a wild card. A review, a How-To, a Top 5. Anything I feel like talking about, it will be on Wednesday. I am also changing the time the videos go live. In the past, it has been at 12PM PST. I want some uniformity with the live streams, so those too will be changing to 7PM PST. That also gives me time to edit those the day they go live as opposed to cramming it in over the weekend. Now, even with this schedule, that doesn't mean I wont post a random video from time to time. As always, if something comes up in the news that I wanna talk about, I will. But these changes simply guarantee you 2 streams and 3 uploads a week.
Overall, I hope these changes will result in better quality content for you all and a better, healthier me. I am especially excited about making the channel more interactive with you all. Interactivity with the audience is the best part about being a YouTuber. And I hope to further engage with you all as part of the future of this channel. Other improvements coming to the channel include a new banner and updated intro and outro. The future looks bright for the channel and I hope you all continue to join me for the ride. Anyway, it will still be a while before I officially return. Work is still CRAZY hectic and I hope things return to normal soon. But either way, thank you all for your support and I hope to be back soon.